really starting to grok that the less i say .. the more in the game of existence am i

won the rep of the year award again .. and just like last time .. it's only value any love that it may hold

looking yet a little closer at this small self .. everything seems a paradox .. and she doesn't even seem to want what she says she wants

and meyers said the subliminal self is .. wiser and more foolish .. truer and more false .. more understanding and more ignorant

shhhhhhhh don't speak

and shout it on the rooftops

this apple did not fall upon my head
was given instead by a friend

but the fresh crispy
sour juicy

ness impacted as if it had

fear tears u up inside

and there's a bliss in this

. . and the baby on the bus saying hi and waving to everyone getting on .. and saying bye and waving to everyone getting off . . .

would love to listen to tomorrow's aqal journal live call .. but am working for extra $$$ to cover the trip in october .. which reminds me i'd better get to bed because they'll be no smiling sleeping-in tomorrow morning

as being of the last eyes they see before they go i pray only that they see love

in the eyes of the babe on the bus the same wave for hi as for bye .. being both a culturally taught motion .. and an inner experience of those getting on and those getting off being the same

having access to this as it is a state

it's my day off but am allowed to go in to do six hours overtime .. so off i go to earn gas, motel and restaurant money for the voyeee 

after she dances just a little bit more first, the little procrastinator

oh my gawd .. don't ya just LOVE autumn ??

the crispness and the colors oh be still my heart

worked so much overtime that now have enough to fly in a ship thru the sky .. wheeeeeeeeeee to the isc3 day three

but due to the extra work have fallen behind with parts of the ilp

like with reading irreducible mind .. 

but ever and always maintaining the morning (or when i arise is more accurate sometimes than "morning") sitting .. and the moving meditation .. xxxooo .. and the everywhere she looks she sees god

and tonight oh how easily i was transported into utter ecstacy by the site of the enormous silver pink overhead puffs of light .. that's exactly what i look like .. completely and utterly exactly what i feel like